The Obligations of Memory
I am very suspicious of the past and of memory. The past continually rewrites itself, with subtle (or less-than-subtle) modifications. My memory, encouraged by a photograph or another artifact, can construct vibrantly real histories and mythologies that I never could have witnessed, or remembered. I work often wordlessly, mostly intuitively, yet I am called upon to create an archeology of my discipline; such a retrospective activity is by its nature at best a post-mortem, possibly a rationalization, and at worst, a lie.
“The Obligations of Memory” falls into three clearly demarcated sections, each differentiated with particular rhetorical, contrapuntal, and tempo identities. The sections are related in that the piano’s harmonies of the first section are renewed by multiple revoicings; the hands are then separated from one another and recombined according to stochastic operations. This technique continues through the third section, although with different transpositions and different dramatic identity. While I work mostly by intuition, I find that sometimes combining this with chance operations or highly formalistic work methods can circumvent the mind’s annoying habit of repetition. Recurring dreams, repetition compulsions, comfortable habits.
In spite of our best efforts I believe it is impossible to know another completely. Hence this work, as I look back on it, is suffused with an aura of alienation, loss of identity, attempts at communication. The theatrical element of the work certainly clearly articulates this and introduces these ideas in a form of physical parataxis for the performers. However, my unknowing is not necessarily a loss‚Äîultimately it is the opportunity for continual discovery, surprise, and growth.
“The Obligations of Memory” is a wedding gift to my husband, Dejan Panti.
- Shards from an Amphora Depicting the Goddess Athena in Battle
- Whosoever Is Delighted in Solitude Is Either a Wild Beast or a God (premiere)
- Dance With Me
- Future Clouds
- adagio sostenuto
- bas relief
- vox sanguinaria
- Night Vision
- The Weight of a Reflection
- la folie circulaire
- and i have touched the sky
- Sown Under the Skin of my Hands
- la figure se brule
- The Obligations of Memory
- My sorrow of rare proportions
- Tombeau. Tattoo. Tether.
- (New Work)
- Lay Down Your Burdens